Je suis un flâneur

or how I have come to love almost all things Parisian

Some Other Kinds Of Songs... ©2024 Patrick T. Power

NOTE: I've decided to abandon my Substack account because of that platform's decision to create a partnership with right-winger Bari Weiss's organization. I will migrate what few posts I've published there to this site. This post was originally published on 13 June 2024.

Françoise Hardy died yesterday.

I first heard of her when I read the poem-liner notes that Bob Dylan included on the back of his LP Another Side of Bob Dylan, which was released sixty years ago (!!) this year.

I was not yet 9 at the time, so my awareness of Dylan wouldn't really hit until the next year, when "Like A Rolling Stone" became a mainstay on the radio, and even then, it was just another Top 40 song I heard a lot. "Rainy Day Women #12 & 35" also got a lot of airplay the following year (as had a number of his songs performed by other people that I wouldn't have known at the time were his), but I wouldn't fall under his spell for another six years, so I probably didn't buy Another Side until 1971 or so. I recall that when I read this poem for the first time, I didn't understand Hardy's first name. At that time, I knew virtually zero French other than Comment allez-vous ?¹ which I'd seen in a book in my grade school's library in 6th or 7th grade, so when I saw Françoise, the E at the end threw me because for whatever reason, I thought the reference was to a guy since I'd only heard or seen the male equivalent, François, up until that point. It didn't occur to me then to look the person up, but then, there wasn't an internet—where and how, exactly, would I have done this?

All that has little to do, I guess, with my love of Paris, but it was seeing the news that Hardy had died which got me to thinking again about my favorite city. You see, after my first visit to Paris in November of 2005, I kept up my efforts to learn French, and in addition to constantly listening to lessons so that I could speak it a little better on my next trip, I watched French films. One such film was actually a Québécois film, Les Invasions barbares, and it was as the credits rolled that I heard Françoise Hardy's voice for probably the first time as she sang "L'amitié".²

I realize this is a rather disjointed post but so many of my memories are intertwined and therefore connect only tangentially. I can't help but think about Paris when I think about Françoise Hardy, and of course, Dylan comes to mind when I think of her.

So, anyway… Paris…

Piétons ©2024 Patrick T. Power

When I arrived in Paris that first time, I didn't really know what to expect. I was nearly 50 and I hadn't been much of a traveler up until that point in my life, but I had begun to get the bug a few years earlier as a perk, of sorts, that came with the duties of a volunteer position I'd taken with the local folk music and dance organization, The Ten Pound Fiddle Coffeehouse. I made trips to Albuquerque, Vancouver, Jacksonville, Nashville, Memphis, and Montréal to scout musicians for the concert series I was booking. During that time, September of 2004 to be precise, my affection for photography had been rekindled thanks to having discovered Flickr. One of my Flickr contacts³ at the time, Catherine, was a Parisian and sometime in early 2005, she extended an invitation to stay with her and her family (a story in itself), which I leapt at. I acquired my first passport that summer and bought airfare for early November.

By this time, I'd been on Flickr for about a year, and had developed a number of online relationships with other Parisian Flickr people, so I practically had a built-in social network in place when I stepped off the plane. At that time, a lot of local Flickr groups were forming, and meet-ups and photowalks were being organized all around the world, so I fully expected to get together with people I'd communed with online, as well as meet a few new people along the way.

A couple of weeks or so before the trip, Catherine let me know she was having issues with a contractor, which meant having to make other arrangements for the first several days. I told this to another Flickr contact in Germany (Maja) via chat one day and she hooked me up with one of her Flickr contacts (Callixte), who blindly agreed to provide me a place to stay for a couple of nights; the next two would be spent with yet another contact, Phil, before I moved on to Catherine's place. Things worked out, thanks to Flickr.

When I arrived at the Port-Royal train station from Charles-de-Gaulle airport, Callixte greeted me and we walked the five minutes or so to his place. He had to go back to work, so I got caught up on emails and posting a few pictures to Flickr. It rained that evening, but I still went out for a bit while Callixte was away, and I basically walked the perimeter of Jardin du Luxembourg. I recall walking along Rue de Vaugirard⁴ behind a gentleman who walked with his hands clasped together behind his back, a rosary dangling from his fingers, with light too dim to take a decent photograph with my camera.⁵ When I got back from the walk, Callixte and I went to dinner and then I wrote a blog post⁶ about the day before passing out on the futon.

Probably unlike most tourists, I don't have much of a tourist-y mindset when traveling. In fact, I had spent a good part of my first full day in the 4th arrondissement, specifically at la Cathédrale Notre-Dame de Paris, not so much because it's a must-see tourist destination, really, but because having grown up Catholic and spending a lot of time in one of Toledo's oldest churches, I've long had a thing for religious iconography—despite my atheistic ways. Earlier in the year in Montréal, I'd spent some time away from my conference in la Basilique Notre-Dame, so I got a little bit of a taste of Gothic architecture + religious iconography + French history at that time. I recall thinking as I walked the streets of Old Montréal, that "as amazing as this place is, Paris must be really be amazing!" For years, I've had an illustrated book by architect David Macaulay, Cathedral: The Story of Its Construction—which while not specifically about Notre Dame⁷, it could be—and its drawings depict the grandness of such a church as well as its importance to the people in the community. There is a certain feeling, I guess, being in such a historic place, especially after spending so many years of my youth in and around an old Catholic church, of being somehow in touch with the people whose hands built it.

Sainte-Jeanne D'Arc et la Cathédrale Notre-Dame ©2024 Patrick T. Power

From Île de la Cité, the island in the middle of the Seine upon which Notre Dame sits, I walked north along the river into the 1st arrondissement. Despite that the Eiffel Tower is hard to miss from just about any vantage point in the city, I chose not to photograph it right away. In fact, I intentionally obscured it for the most part in my first photograph of it, taken from Jardin des Tuileries—the tourist not wanting to be a tourist.

Tour Eiffel depuis le Jardin des Tuileries ©2024 Patrick T. Power

I did eventually make my way to Parc Champ-de-Mars and Tour Eiffel that day, but I didn't take that many photographs while I was there. I rested on a bench for a bit and watched some kids kick a soccer ball around, and I nodded off momentarily a few times. When I did get to Eiffel, I mostly just basked in the romance of the moment. It's a bit odd to think that a structure of wrought-iron could engender such emotions. Or had I become in touch with something else entirely? I watched others as they waited to ascend the tower; I watched lovers kiss directly below the tower's center point; I imagined sharing the moment with someone with whom I'd recently become smitten. Heading back to Callixte's place, I stopped to get a few groceries and promptly got lost. But I came across a carousel where a father kept yelling at his daughter to sit down (I needn't have understood French to know this), and I took a bunch of mostly blurry photographs.

Le carousel ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Well before the trip, I had watched Le fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain, or as it's most commonly known, Amélie, so on day two, when I met up with another friend who lived not far from Montmartre, where the film was set, she took me to Canal Saint-Martin, site of several of the film's scenes, and I accompanied her in the rain on a couple of errands, to the market and a photolab. Along the way, we spoke by phone to another Flickr contact in Stockholm, Sandra, who had recently been to Paris herself. Then I headed to Cité des Sciences et de l'Industrie, where Catherine worked, to meet her at last.

La Géode à la Cité des Sciences et de l'Industrie ©2024 Patrick T. Power

The next day, I got the chance to experience a big chunk of Paris on foot (à pied) as Callixte escorted me from his place on Rue Léopold Robert in Montparnasse to where Catherine lived in the 9th arrondissement, across Place Blanche from le Moulin Rouge. Our hike took us through Jardin du Luxembourg, past l'Institut de France, across the Seine by way of Pont des Arts (before the hideous "love locks" began to appear). Unlike my first full day in the city, the sun was out and I discovered how beautiful Paris is in the sunlight.

Il Attend ©2024 Patrick T. Power

While a few people questioned why I would go to Paris in the late fall instead of in the spring, I can only say that the sun's low southerly path across the sky illuminated the buildings and almost everything else with an especially beautiful light. I was lucky that contrary to what Catherine had warned me about, Paris was not "grey and rainy, [where] everybody's depressed" the whole time. In fact, it was sunny for the preponderance of my stay.

Bar du Marche ©2024 Patrick T. Power

My biggest regret about that first trip from a photographic standpoint was that as a newbie (read: idiot) in the digital world, I hadn't taken much time to understand the technology, so I had set the camera to create smaller than full-size images in order to fit more photographs on the lone memory card that I'd brought with me. I don't know why it hadn't occurred to me to buy a second or third or fourth card. Perhaps I felt they were too expensive at the time. Inexplicably, I hadn't given it much—if any—thought, other than that I figured I'd only be sharing online anyway, that prints were a thing of the past. I was wrong as I eventually wanted to have prints made. I was lucky, at least, that the resolution turned out to be good enough for 11" x 14" enlargements.⁸

Trinité ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Without turning this post into a day-by-day travelogue of that trip, in which I would also have to post dozens of photographs, suffice it to say that I took many, many steps from day to day, and when I wanted to get someplace rather quickly, I took the métro, one of my favourite places to take photographs in Paris. It was especially nice at that time because the camera had a swivel viewer, which allowed me to sneak pictures of people without having to hold the camera up to my eye, thereby giving away what I was up to. Quality was often limited by the camera's not-so-professional specs, but it was nonetheless a worthy device for developing the way I see and create photographs.

Dans le Metro ©2024 Patrick T. Power

It has been my tradition since that first trip to walk to Eiffel on the very last full day of the trip from wherever I've been staying in the city. I've yet to go to the top of the structure, or any part of it, for that matter, but its mystique draws me nonetheless.

Tour-istes ©2024 Patrick T. Power

I have been to Paris five or six times since 2005. I've not been there since 2011 when Callixte and his now-wife Cindy asked me to photograph their wedding in Sainte-Avé, near Vannes in Bretagne, and lately, I have been jonesing bad for a visit. Recently, I discovered the music of Zaho de Sagazan (ohmuhgawdsobrilliant!), which I have been listening to almost non-stop (which has done nothing to quell my desire for Paris) as I have been trying to learn her songs in order to sing along.

I wish, though, that I had something more to say about Françoise Hardy beyond that I listened to more of her music after "discovering" her. Over the years, I'd checked out the various versions of "L'amitié" on YouTube and was glad to see that she was still singing it. Recently, however, I noticed she'd retired a few years ago from singing—I hadn't known that she was in ill health. When I discovered Zaho a few weeks ago (via the algorithm) on Instagram, I got the feeling that her song "La symphonie des éclairs" will be much loved for a long time in France. As I listened to "L'amitié" again today, I noticed that Zaho's song had similar themes, and I wondered if one hadn't helped to inspire the other.

If you have seen the film Paris je t'aime⁹, you might be able to understand my appreciation for the city. The last vignette, 14e arrondissement, in particular, which follows an American woman around town as she narrates with a not-so-fluent French, resonates probably the most with me. My affection for the place is more about the life there than it is about the tourist attractions. It's the open-air cafés, the architecture, the parks, the cemeteries that are almost park-like, the value that is placed on culture and the arts, its history, and even its grittiness. And my friends.

And while, yes, I have taken rides on a bateau-mouche and La Grande Roue de Paris, and have visited le Louvre, I'm more interested in what I discover in the city's less-congested narrow streets, even if it means being propositioned by an elderly dame de la nuit opening her trench coat to me.

Paris depuis Montmartre ©2024 Patrick T. Power

As I've gone through photographs to dress up this little reminiscence, I've done new edits to replace those I did with Picasa way back then. While it was a nice, basic editing software, my skills and Photoshop have improved vastly since then. I've also looked at the panoramas I created (there were many!) with a new eye and better software. Hence the Little Planet projection of a three-frame panorama of the city taken from in front of le Basilique du Sacré-Cœur (above), and another of Sacré-Cœur—just a little on the distorted side.

La Basilique du Sacré-Cœur ©2024 Patrick T. Power

The trip, for all that it did to open my eyes to a world outside the rather limited one I had experienced for almost fifty years, had its trials. Maybe I'll get into that some other time.

Of course, I cannot thank enough the people who so generously, graciously opened their homes to me and who guided me—whether physically or spiritually or emotionally—around a city that they love as well, who accommodated my non-French conversation, and in so many ways warmed my heart.

Ils m'ont réchauffé le cœur ©2024 Patrick T. Power

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¹ I recall distinctly, too, that the suggested answer to "Comment allez-vous ?" (How are you?) was "Je suis bien, merci, et vous ?", the literal translation for which is "I am good, thank you, and you?" But it is incorrect French. Literally, "Comment allez-vous ?" translates to "How do you go?", which would be akin to our "How's it going?" So, the correct answer to the query is "I go well, thank you, and you?" or "Je vais bien, merci, et vous ?" [back]

²The more I hear "Tous les filles et les garçons" (All the boys and girls) in tribute videos, I wonder if the song might have been played on our local radio stations back in the day. [back]

³At that time, you did not "follow" someone on Flickr, you were contacts with them. In my mind, there is a vast difference between the two terms and the dynamics which come with the distinction. [back]

⁴From Wikipedia: "Rue de Vaugirard…is the longest street inside Paris's former city walls, at 4.3 km (2.7 mi). It spans the 6th and 15th arrondissements." I discovered on this trip that as streets cross from one arrondissement into another that the names change, Rue de Vaugirard being a rare exception. [back]

⁵Nikon CoolPix 8800 [back]

⁶My intent was to write about my experiences day by day, but I had some problems with Blogger that I can't recall now, and stopped writing after only two days. I regret not following through with that plan. [back]

⁷Macauley created an imaginary town, Chutreaux, as the site for his imaginary cathedral. [back]

⁸If memory serves (pardon the unintentional pun), I was able to move images to CDs in order to make room for more photographs. I could really kick myself for how naïve I was. [back]

⁹In reality, a collection of eighteen short films (twenty were originally planned)—each of which takes place in a different arrondissement in Paris—created by twenty-two directors. [back]

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Unfriend Update

I've not posted here in some time. Mostly because I've been so immersed in scanning old 35mm negatives that I've not been giving much time to putting my thoughts to words. Believe me, as I've gone through the photographs a LOT has crossed my mind, but in my attempt to be as efficient in my scanning, I'm unable to find a momentum for anything else.

I will, however, update the situation I wrote about not quite a month ago, after I unfriended someone on Facebook I've known since I was a grade schooler.

I didn't end up responding to his text right away as I wanted my senses to cool down a bit. I wanted to think long about what I wanted to say to him. In the interim, he attempted to video call me, but I didn't pick up.

I turned 69 on the 1st of this month, and while I had my text ready to go, I decided that I was going to enjoy my day without giving him the opportunity to spoil it. So, I sent it the next day:

"Hi _______. I see you tried video-calling me the other day... I've been busy with ten or more different diversions in the last week, so I'm sorry for not getting back to you sooner. I've also put off responding as I wanted to give my words careful thought.

Here's the thing... my dropping you on Facebook had less to do with whom you voted for than the vile, cruel, vicious, ugly, baseless attacks in the memes you shared, which were most often race-based and misogynistic. It's poison. And please don't try to equate it with my criticisms of a convicted fraudster, serial sexual predator, adjudicated rapist, and known liar and cheater—those are actual facts—not my opinions or "fake news" or some "deep state" conspiracy. And let's not leave out the fact that he instigated the attack on the Capitol.

Of course, it wasn't enough for you to post your crap leading up to the election, you kept right on after it was over because... sore winner? When I unfriended you, it was after several days of consideration; I thought, why do I want to be associated with someone like that? You might not have posted it on my page (as you had previously under my photograph of Harris) but it still popped up in my feed. Politics isn't a football game, _______. Real human beings are going to be hurt in the coming years thanks to the results of this election for no other reason than hate and a desire to make less-fortunate people suffer. Very possibly, I'm going to lose my Social Security somewhere down the road, which is all I have to live on these days because people aren't hiring 69-year-old photographers. Medicare is also at risk. I have a mentally ill son who relies on government assistance to get by. And there are a LOT of people worse off than I am or my son is.

As if the ugly, disgusting, untruthful attacks on Harris weren't enough, you decided to publicly attack me with insinuations about why I moved to San Francisco, which I deleted before I even finished reading because about ten words was all I needed to see. I still can't believe that you'd even considered going there. Even if I WERE gay, you have no right to come to my page and disparage me for it. I can't believe I even have to say that. Who does that to a friend?

So, I'm not sure at the moment what I want to do. I believe you're sincere with your apology and your promise not to post such crud on my page again, but again I ask myself why? How do I relate with someone who seems to have such a deep hatred for others who are just trying to live in the world?"

So, very likely that will be the end of it. I've not heard back from him, and I'm not really inclined at this point to follow up. I've got other stuff I feel is more important to me at this moment. And I'm still fucking depressed about this stupid fucking country.

That said, I was thrilled to make contact with a friend in Paris I'd not heard from in a long time. I'm not going to go into details, but her life has taken quite a few bad turns since last we were in touch (not least of which was catching COVID-19), so I was so very happy to hear from her, despite the bad news that accompanied her emails. I hope we can forge some kind of new beginning now that she's opened the door a crack.

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Halcyon Flickr Days

tribute, ©2005 Phil Hilfiker. Some rights reserved.

The other day, as I was going through my Flickr stream (or feed, or whatever it's called these days), looking for photographs for Part One and Part Two of my story about my not-quite last day in Paris in November of 2005, I looked at comments at various photos along the way, sometimes clicking on a commenter's name to see if by some miracle they were still active on Flickr. Overwhelmingly, they more often were not. This made me sad because at one time, Flickr meant so much to so many people. Hell, had it not been for Flickr, I probably never would have gone to Paris in that fall of 2005, or ever for that matter. But one of my contacts thought so much of my photography—which I would be the first to say was not particularly special, especially in those days—to invite me to stay with her and her family. That, as I've said before, is another story for another time.

I'm not sure how I got to the photograph above, but once I did, all the joy of being on Flickr in those times came rushing back. In the event you didn't click on the photograph to see the text beneath it (you should, by the way), it was taken by my friend Phil on the first anniversary of his having created a Flickr account. His words give a little idea as to what the community was like at the time, which was tremendously supportive and... communal.

It was also VERY playful. Memes (alas, not everybody tagged their photos for this one) were created and spread quickly around the site. An entire group was created for images built upon other people's photos, many of which would build upon another person's already Photoshop'd masterpiece. I don't know how it came to be known as Big Al Davies Collage Squad other than that maybe it had to do with Big Al's visage showing up in so many of them in the beginning.

One of mine, a favourite...

Big Al: Botanical Photographer. Some rights reserved.

I merged a photo that Al had posted of himself in his stream and Lily Pond by Catherine Jamieson. Unfortunately, because Al deleted his stream on several occasions (only to start a new one), the trail of source images can no longer be traced on many of the collages in the group.

While the hilariousness of this nonsense was addicting, it also served a purpose—for me, at least—in that it gave me an opportunity to develop my Photoshop chops. I previously had used Google's Picasa editor for my photo editing, which was a fine editor for most things I posted, but it was nowhere near as versatile as Photoshop.

Getting back to Phil's photograph, he was one of the handful of people, I think, who made up the core of the collage group, along with me, Al, Steffe, Marya (rhymes with aria), and Jeff. But it wasn't one of his collages that prompted me to write this. It was the "tribute" photographs that followed the one above; the first one by Juliette...

tribute to phil, ©2006 Juliette Melia. All rights reserved.

Then my tribute to Juliette's tribute...

Tribute to Juliette's Tribute to Phil, ©2006 Patrick T. Power. All rights reserved.

Then Sandra's tribute to my tribute to Juliette's tribute...

paparazzi me, ©2006 Sandra Löv. All rights reserved.

It doesn't look so much like a tribute, I suppose, but it was an inspired tag-on nonethless. What struck me the funniest in all this was Sandra's reference to my contribution in the silly sequence of events.

This is what I prefer when it comes to an online life—not the sharing of memes generated by "Digital Creators" on Facebook, or the animated GIF responses (something which actually appeared on Flickr and ruined many a comment thread with their presence), but connectivity fostered by creativity.

As I was trying find a photograph I could use to wrap this up, I re-discovered a series of photo-merges I'd created using my Icelandic friend Helga's photograph of an Icelandic sheep, Salomon, which I dubbed Salomon's Travels. As I browsed Flickr, I would imagine Salomon making an appearance in others' photographs. Once I found something, the challenge was in processing Salomon's appearance to somewhat match up with the lighting in the photograph I'd chosen to bastardize. In this one I inserted Salomon into a self-portrait by another Icelander, Arnthor Birkisson

Salomon's Dark Side (with apologies to Arnthor Birkisson and Helga Kvam).

A great many of my friends on Facebook and other social media sites are those with whom I communed on Flickr, and we so often pine for those days again because of the uniqueness of the experience, which is sometimes difficult to put into words for people who never used Flickr.

At the end of the year, however, I intend on posting my last photograph on Instagram—assuming that I continue to take at least one photograph a day between now and then—and then commencing anew at Flickr. I don't care if Instagram is the place to be for everyone else. I've decided that it's not for me.

Unfriend

Today I decided to block a friend on Facebook. At this point, I guess I can call him an ex-friend.

We've known each other for as long as I can recall. He and I grew up on the same street about a block and a half away from each other. I can't recall how we came to meet for the first time other than that at that time—the 1960s and into the 1970s—everyone seemed to know everyone else within a couple of blocks of home. He's a year older, went to different elementary and high schools that I did, so we didn't have age or school in common, it was more than likely the overlap of friends.

Regardless, we became pals during high school. He had a 1950s vintage Pontiac or Chevrolet or Buick and I recall him driving us to one of my classmates' party in Genoa, Ohio one weekend, and having to drive home in a pretty thick fog. After high school, we went out drinking together, often to Charlie's Blind Pig near the University of Toledo (which everyone knew as Toledo University—or TU—at the time), or to a pizza joint in north Toledo. In 1973, I believe, he suggested I apply for a job with Commercial Aluminum Cookware in downtown Toledo, where he worked. I was working only part-time at Big Barney Auto Wash, just up the street from home at the time, but it was time to move on, so I applied and got hired.

We worked together at Commercial together for a couple of years-plus (he would retire from there), continued going out drinking together, and regularly golfed together, whether weekly with a bunch of guys from work or just the two of us on the weekend. We go to the driving range fairly often. There was a group of us from our neighbourhood that at one point or another worked for Commercial, also probably at his behest. The bunch of us listened to music a lot together, talked about our new stereo gear, went to concerts and one music festival. All pretty typical stuff that neighbourhood friends do. I became a pretty serious fan of Bob Dylan thanks in large part to having borrowd a copy of his Greatest Hits record from this person, a story for another time.

Pretty much all those relationships fell away, however, when I went off to university in the mid-1970s. I developed new—albeit not particularly long-lasting—relationships while at school; I fell in love a few times (ultimately with the woman I would marry and be divorced by) lived briefly in Minneapolis, Minnesota and Columbus, Ohio, and except for a few years right after getting my degree, I've lived in Michigan and now, California.

Now, I know that I am not the best human being on the planet. I try to be helpful and useful, kind and generous; I endeavour to not purposely hurt people. That said, I know that I have let many people down in my lifetime. One thing that I haven't done, though, is to baldly lie about a friend. But that's what this person did. The lie was work-related.

We were paid hourly to produce cookware, whether spinning pots and pans on lathes, creating baking pans on presses, stamping aluminum with the company name and product number... just a few of the myriad tasks that went on at the factory. I probably spent most of my time trimming the burrs from the edges of saucepan covers. If you worked forty hours a week, you were paid a base wage, but if you worked forty-eight hours a week, the hourly wage went up. I can't recall the specifics, but it was a pretty significant increase from the forty-hour rate to the bonus rate. Our usual starting time was 6:00 a.m., and each day, we would punch in at that time and punch out at 5:00, with an hour lunch usually at noon. I don't recall anyone who didn't opt for the forty-eight- to fifty-hour week. We were given six or seven minutes grace on our clock-in, meaning that if you punched in outside of that grace period, say at 6:08, you were docked an hour. There were many times that coming in late would have meant losing my bonus pay for the week, so I'd call in sick instead. Everyone did this.

One morning, the floor supervisor, Bill, called me into his office. I liked Bill for the most part. He was a golfer and part of the golfing group I mentioned, he played euchre with us during lunch—smoked like a fiend—but he could be a son-of-a-bitch when he put his mind to it, and on this morning, it had come to his attention that someone was punching in other employees' time cards so that they wouldn't get docked, and that somebody had accused me of doing it. I denied doing it, of course, because it hadn't been me. When I asked who had accused me, he told me my, uh, friend had accused me. When, of course, he had been the miscreant.

At the time, I completely severed ties with him. I didn't speak to him for at least a year, despite that I saw him five days a week at work. I can't recall why I lifted my year-long silent treatment, but I did, and things basically went back to normal. I think that the rest of the employees saw us as a Laurel and Hardy or some such inseparable duo since we hung out so much together during and after work hours. We pulled practical jokes together. But the lie should have been a warning.

I missed another sign I probably should have seen at the time. One night, we drove to Bowling Green, Ohio (about twenty miles south of Toledo and where I would eventually go to university) to go to the bars. We must not have stayed too long because on the way back home, President Richard Nixon was giving an address to the nation, which we listened to on the radio. I despised Nixon, who would have been embroiled in the Watergate scandal the night of our little drinking sojourn. I recall mocking almost every single word that came out of his mouth because I knew to the depth of my being that he was a nasty, lying son-of-a-bitch. I was told to shut up. It didn't hit me until recently that he had to have been a Nixon fan, too.

Fast forward to 2015: I helped to organize a reunion at my elementary school. Originally, we had planned it to be just our 8th Grade class, but other classes caught wind of it and wanted to attend. We decided to make it an all-inclusive reunion, allowing anyone who had gone to school at Good Shepherd to come, and almost five hundred people showed up. As did my, uh, friend, who took photographs during the event, which was great because the niece of one of the organizers, who had volunteered, must have screwed something up because I didn't see a single picture she'd taken. As one of the organizers, I allowed him to attend even though he didn't attend our school. But since he lived right across the street, knew so many of the attendees, and had played hockey for years with one of the other organizers, I said OK. It was great to get reacquainted after so many years and to meet his wife. We had already connected on Facebook, but hadn't engaged with each other all that much. We spoke on the phone at length later that year and I learned he'd nearly died due to issues with his heart—the physical one.

Fast forward again to 2024, an election year: I should not have been surprised to find that that he's a Trump supporter. I have family members that are Trump supporters, so it's not like I live in a totally protective political bubble. I guess I was surprised by the vile, ugly, mean, viscious, disgusting, untruthful crap that he would share about Kamala Harris not only to his page, but as comments on my page. I deleted them, of course, just as he deleted my fact-based reminders that he supported a lying, cheating, convicted fraudster, adjudicated rapist, and seditionist. A couple of weeks ago, I changed my share settings so that he couldn't see my new posts, particularly if they had anything to do with the election.

His ugliness didn't end, of course, on election day. Something he shared on his page popped up for me to see (to be clear, this was not something he posted to my page) and I began to question why I bothered staying connected to someone so hateful and hurtful who supported someone so hateful, hurtful, and self-serving who was going to yet again be the most powerful person in the world, who had vowed to hurt people for no reason other than that he could. After a few days of thinking about it, I unfriended him on Facebook. I didn't block him, though. I saw that he "followed" me, which meant that he could comment or Like or see some of what I had previously posted, including a photo I had taken of Kamala Harris when she was running for the Senate in 2016 because he had once commented on that. He was not one to comment very often anyway, so I thought I could just quietly disappear from his feed.

Today, though, he commented on the photo of Harris again. I assume he discovered I'd unfriended him, because it was a nasty comment about me and my choice to live in San Francisco. I didn't even read the whole thing before deleting it, to be honest. I should have done a screencap of it to include here but I decided to get rid of the ugliness before anyone else had to see it. I recall he used the word sissy (or sissified) and something I think was supposed to suggest that I was gay, either because he believes it or that I'd be hurt by it. And it was then I decided that yeah, I'd made the right decision to unfriend him.

And then I blocked him.

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This Old Sweater

Moi, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

My friend Greg wrote about an old shirt that he owns, and since it's my hope to write here on a daily basis (at least for a little while), the topic inspired me as I, too, have an article of clothing that I have been wearing for a long time, and which still brings a certain comfort to me.

My story probably isn't half as interesting as Greg's, but in February of 2005, I attended the International Folk Alliance conference in Montréal, Québec, Canada. I was booking a folk music concert series at the time, as well as coördinating the music for the now-defunct Great Lakes Folk Festival. It might have been my first time out of the country as an adult, now that I think about it, as the only time I recall being in Canada previous to that was on a family vacation as a kid.

Since it was February in Montréal, I naturally brought warm clothes with me because I expected to wander from the hotel while I was there. I had joined Flickr the previous September (I can't believe it's been over twenty years now!) and had become part of a thriving community of people sharing photographs and stories and their senses of humour and so many aspects of their lives. No social media site can match that today—not Facebook, not Instagram, not the hellscape once known as Twitter. Flickr was the be all, end all of social media.

But I digress...

I was staying at the Hyatt Regency, just a short walk from Old Montréal, so I planned to get to the oldest part of the then three-hundred-sixty-three-year-old city to take photographs to share on Flickr. I didn't have a really heavy coat at the time, despite that I lived in Michigan, but layers would keep me warm. One of the layers was this sweatshirt.

Trois, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Odds are you haven't been to a Folk Alliance conference before, but during the day, there are break-out sessions about various aspects of the music business aimed at both musicians and bookers/producers, along with official showcases by musicians produced by the Folk Alliance. Musicians also hold "guerrilla" showcases, typically in their bedrooms or in suites if they happen to have garnered sponsorship. I've not been to a conference in quite some time, but the guerrilla sets were discouraged while the official showcases were going on so as not to splinter the audience during that block of time.

So, once the offical showcases had ended late in the evening, the unofficial showcases would run until almost all hours of the night. Since the hotel was pretty much nothing but conference goers, it didn't tend to create a problem. Also, there were "non-music" floors for people who had more interest in sleeping than attending these mini-concerts. Perhaps the biggest problem was—as a booker wanting to check out specific musicians—being able to get from one room to another in short periods of time, especially if it meant going from one floor to another when everyone else was trying to do the same thing at the same time.

Which is what leads me to the sweater. You know... the one in the photograph at the top of this page?

I can't recall the specific circumstances of the night in question, but it's all too likely that I had returned to the hotel either from a walk or from having dinner with several friends, and after dropping off my coat in my room, I went about my magical mystery tour wearing the XXL sweater, and somewhere along the way, I got too warm wearing it so I took it off and carried it around with me from showcase to showcase. I most certainly had a conference tote bag with me, but as it was no doubt filled with CDs and press kits, the sweatshirt was either tucked under my arm or—more likely—tied around my waist so that I wouldn't have to carry it under my arm, and somewhere along the way, either in a hotel room or hallway or elevator, I dropped it. When I noticed it, I backtracked a bit in hopes of recovering it but to no avail.

So, on my flight out, knowing that the airplane cabin would be cold (they're always cold!), I bought a new sweater at an airport gift shop, and while it no doubt was expensive to some degree, I have certainly gotten my money's worth out of it over the course of the last nearly twenty years. It has also made an appearance in many of the self-portraits I've posted at Flickr since that time, although sometimes not always an obvious component of the photographs. It has traveled to Paris, Oslo, Prince Edward Island, and the United Kingdom as well as many places throughout the United States in twenty years. In fact, one totally unexpected benefit of wearing the sweater in Paris in 2005, when Bush was President, was that people guessed that I was from Canada. That was nice.

Unlike Greg's shirt, my sweater hasn't developed any holes. The zipper is still intact, but the elastic at the ends of the sleeves has been stretched out from pulling the sleeves up to my elbows too many times. The green in the fabric has also faded a fair amount. Like Greg, I put it on during the cold months while I'm indoors to help against the chill in the air (especially since our steam heat seems to work only when it's warm outside), and lately, unike Greg, I've even been wearing it outdoors.

History. Comfort.

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My Last Day In Paris, Part Two

or Not My Last Day In Paris, Part Two

Sumei à l'Hôtel du Nord ©2024 Patrick T. Power

It's best to read Part One first.

After parting with Sumei, a light rain began to fall in the city as I made my way to Le Dock. Based on the photos I took, I rode the métro to a stop near the Louvre, probably Concorde, then walked from there. Amongst my favourite things to do in Paris (or, really, anywhere, I guess) is to photograph the reflections in the wet pavement. And so it was that I noticed the reflections of the red illuminated awnings of the entrances at the Ritz Paris in Place Vendôme.

Ritz Paris, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Everything so far had gone swimmingly, and I took to heart the first three letters of the name of a shoe store, I think, or maybe one that sold clothes in general. La joie. Joy.

La joie, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

I must have gotten something to eat at around this time as I didn't take another photograph for well over an hour, and didn't get to Le Dock for another hour after that. While I recall so much about the day and the trip, I'm at a loss as to the space of time between Place Vendôme and Le Dock.

Sebastien at the bar, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Ten or twelve of my friends made it out that night, a Tuesday, as well as a couple I think I'd never met before, and borrowing a mobile, I called one more—Phil—to encourage him to show up. It turned out that it was a good thing he did.

Aru, Me, Pierre, and Audrey, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

A native of Switzerland, Phil had been living in Paris for some time. He's a musician and founded/runs a music school. When my original lodging plans hit a snag, he let me stay at his place for two or three nights. This is important to note because Phil's ex-girlfriend from Sweden, Linn, was also staying with him for a spell as she was in Paris for a medical appointment. She and I had talked at some point and we discovered that we were scheduled to fly out on the same day.

With only a couple of exceptions, I probably knew Phil best of all my Flickr friends, so I was hoping to see him before I left. At around 11:30 PM he made it. Almost immediately, he said, "I wasn't going to come because you were supposed to leave today." I said, "No, I leave tomorrow." He said, "No, you were supposed to leave today, because I took Linn to the airport this morning, and you were supposed to leave on the same day she did." Of course, he was right, but as I had my backpack with me which held my itinerary, I got it out to check it.

Un vol raté, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

With that revelation, of course, there was really nothing I could do except carry on with the fun. Figuring out what to do to get home would have to wait until morning. Which, of course, it did.

Mes amis, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

But all of a sudden, it occurred to me that had I made my 1:55 PM flight, I would be landing in Detroit at 5:05 PM, which pretty much was what time it was in Detroit at that very moment. My friend Melissa had offered to pick me up at Detroit Metro, which meant that she might very well be sitting in her car wondering where the hell I was. I borrowed Phil's phone and called her. As I think of this now, I was incredibly lucky that in November of 2005 both she and Phil had mobile phones, because I wouldn't get one for another five years. Anyway, she was just about to arrive at the terminal when I reached her, and being the kind, sweet human being that she is shrugged it off as no problem. (I think. I hope.) While it was a pretty big inconvenience to have wasted four hours of her time (in rush-hour traffic, no less), it could have been SO much worse had I not remembered this. The rest of the evening is a bit of a blur to me now, and not because I was drunk (I wasn't). I went back to my hosts' apartment not knowing what I was going to do. I hoped, of course, that Northwest Airlines would work with me to get me on another flight, but I would soon learn a lesson about airlines and missed flights. (Long after my trip, I was curious about where I was at the time my flight was taking off, so I looked through my photographs and checked their time stamps. I was with Sumei at Hôtel du Nord)

The following morning, Catherine, with some assistance from her brother Julien helped me to book a flight home. At the time, it was considerably cheaper to book round-trip—versus one-way—tickets, so that's what we did, but in order to keep the price down, we went with a departure date that would mean nine more days in Paris. In may ways, those last nine days were the best days of the trip.

Part One

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My Last Day In Paris, Part One

or Not My Last Day In Paris

Canal Saint-Martin, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Probably anyone who knows me even a little knows that I love Paris. Thanks to the generosity of several Parisians, I made my first trip there in November of 2005. I have many stories to tell from that time, but because someone posted something to Facebook this morning that reminded me of something that occurred nineteen years ago yesterday, I thought I would write about that day.

First, I have to preface by saying that my trip was to last two weeks, from 1 November (when the plane left Detroit) to 15 November. At some point during that last week, I decided to make a trip to Madrid, Spain to visit another friend whom I'd met on Flickr. When I booked that flight, my plan was to go to Madrid for three days and two nights, return to Paris, take the whole next day to wander the city one more time, then leave for home the following day.

That was the plan anyway.

Everything actually went pretty smoothly, and on that last full day, I contacted a few of my friends and recommended we get together one last time at Le Dock, a now-defunct bar not too far from L'Opéra Garnier. One of our Flickr pals, Philippe, was a bartender there, and the place was sort of the unofficial Flickr watering hole.

So, that morning, between 9:00 and 10:00, I caught line 1 at the Place Blanche métro station, which was just across the street from where I was staying, and headed to Place Saint-Michel. The trip required changing trains at Gare de L'Est (made famous in the film Amélie), and as I waited for my connection to arrive, I decided to sit on the platform for a while and people watch. In the mornings, as you might imagine, trains were packed with commuters, and as I watched them load and unload every few minutes, I imagined a series of photographs taken over several hours from the spot I was sitting, recording what each train looked like as the doors closed before departing. While I waited, a young woman rushing to get onto a train, unwittingly dropped her scarf. I hurriedly picked it up and handed it to her just inside the door, in time for the doors to close. I took but three frames while I waited at Gare de L'Est, all of the reflection in a stairwell.

À Gare de L'Est, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Once at Saint-Michel, I walked around the area looking for souvenirs for my kids (I am SO BAD at buying gifts for people), took a few pictures at the fountain at Saint-Michel as well as along the Seine, then walked over to explore around Cathédrale Notre-Dame, then Hôtel de Ville before catching another train at the Hôtel de Ville métro stop. I had arranged to meet a friend in the Belleville section of town, so I got off at République station. My route took me past Canal Saint-Martin—also made famous in Amélie—along the way, so I stopped to take a few pictures. The panorama at the top of this post was taken there. Along Boulevard de la Villette, I came upon this woman in a beautiful coat.

Sur Boulevard de la Villette, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

I met my friend Sumei, but not before getting a photograph of part of the façade of Palais des Glaces, a theatre on Rue de Faubourg du Temple.

Palais des Glaces, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Sumei and I headed back to Canal Saint-Martin and we took a bunch of pictures there, me with my Nikon CoolPix 8800 (a rather glorified point-and-shoot) and she with her dSLR, a Nikon D70s.

Passerelle des Douanes (Prisma conversion), ©2024 Patrick T. Power

Sumei is another of the people I met via Flickr, and, in fact, I think this was our first in-person meeting. We stopped to have a coffee at Brasserie de l'Hôtel du Nord on Quai de Jemmapes, which runs along the east side of the canal. Hôtel du Nord is famous as the setting for the eponymous 1938 film. After coffee, Sumei had a little business to tend to. She worked for real estate company at the time, and she had to get a signature on a lease or a deed or something in the La Chappelle neighbourhood, so I accompanied her. Afterwards, we visited Église Saint-Bernard-de-la-Chapelle (Saint Bernard Church of La Chapelle), which was built from 1858 to 1861. I have a thing for religious iconography, despite my atheist ways, so we spent about thirty minutes there before she had to get on her way home in the south of the city.

Église Saint-Bernard-de-la-Chapelle, ©2024 Patrick T. Power

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Zaho de Sagazan

or Fanboy

Zaho De Sagazan, Paléo Festival Nyon 2023. ©Paléo/Anne Colliard

Next month, I'll be going to my first concert in several months, and only the second since the COVID-19 pandemic hit. Anyone who knows me knows that music and concert-going has been a major part of my life for the last thirty years or so. Not just because music has always meant so much to me—that friend when I didn't have one—but because it was also my job for a long time, booking a thirty-a-year concert series for almost ten years, and then a traditional arts festival for seventeen, with a couple of years in which I did both. I also managed an artist's first year or more as she began her career.

As a booker, I often went to shows to check out talent, but one of the perks of the job was being able to call up an agent to get comped into a show just because I wanted to see someone for my own enjoyment.

After I was rather unceremoniously dumped from the festival job, my interest in music took a big spike. As noted above, the pandemic also helped [sic] in that regard, I suppose, but mainly, there was a certain loss in joy as it pertained to live music. Hell, I don't listen to music as much around the apartment anymore, something I never would have foreseen twenty years ago. And on top of that, the 2016 election sucked so much joy out of life.

But a few months ago, this video popped up as a reel on my Instagram feed, likely because I follow a number of French language accounts. The singer's emotion hooked me immediately; as did the melody; as did the words. The experience was something akin to discovering Dar Williams almost thirty years ago. I had to find out more about this person, this Zaho de Sagazan.

The song she sings in the video is "La symphonie des éclairs" or "Symphony of the Lightning," and for days, I listened to it over and over and over again while on my way to jobs or while out walking. Because I have so desperately wanted to understand French—I've been trying to learn it for going on twenty years now—I listened hard to the words to try to make sense of them without the aid of a translator. Indeed I understood most of them and got the gist of the song, thanks probably to its slow-ish pace and the fact that she pronounces almost everything clearly (to my failing ears). It moved me in a way that I can't explain. Maybe it's because she considers herself to be a hypersensitive which resonates with me to a degree?

I looked for live versions of it in addition to that reel clip. I found this one, a performance at Les Victoires de la Musique, which appears to be France's equivalent to the Grammy Awards. I was knocked out by her presence, her movements (she took eight years of dance), her ease with having a camera in her face as she performed, her intensity. That said, the musicians behind her bewildered me somewhat. I found it interesting that they had their backs to the audience, and—because I'm not hip to electronic music—I had no real clue as to what they were doing with those boxes. I spoke with a musician friend of mine in Paris about it and he told me that the boxes were synthesizers. Such is modern music, I guess.

I was so excited by this discovery that I shared the Les Victoires video with a few friends, but unsurprisingly, I suppose, it didn't have the same impact on them because... French. I soon learned that Zaho's recording had been out since 2023, and that she had won five awards at Les Victoires. She most definitely was not une chanteuse inconnue in France.

All of her songs are not of the variety of 'Symphonie.' She is indeed a child of her time, so dance-techno is a big part of her shows from what I've seen on YouTube. I think back on my trip to Paris in the fall of 2007 when I attended the massive annual Techno Parade and the—I'll say it—unbearable volume that ripped through my body, no doubt damaging my ears, makes me wonder what I'm going to experience next month. I'll definitely be wearing ear plugs during certain segments of the show. (I'm still pondering whether or not to wear a mask, leaning towards yes.)

When I initially looked her up, I found this video in which she meets Tom O'Dell, an English pop star whose name sort of rings a bell, but I can't really say I'd heard of him. There is so much about their ideas about music and being musicians that resonates deeply with me. Perhaps the one thing that really hit home with me was when she said, "What I find a little crazy about Tom's music is that it can make us sad or comfort us and it's the same person that's making you sad and comforting you at the same time." In fact, lyrics from the bridge of "La symphonie des éclairs" translate to: "I will make people dance to the rhythm of my tears | The torment of my songs will come to warm hearts, to warm my heart." From that same meeting, there is a video of the two of them performing the song together at the piano, and her expressions throughout are as touching as their performance. Her joy at singing with her mentor is quite moving.

I have listened to her record dozens of times already, and every now and then a new video of her performing "La symphonie des éclairs" pops up, and it's clear to me that the song is going to be performed for a long time, and not only by her. Its message is universal. I hope she never tires of singing it. At the moment, it seems as though she's entirely thrilled to have her audiences sing with her, so much so that she now extends the song to include them.

But it doesn't end with that song for me. Zaho was selected to perform at the opening ceremony of the 2024 Cannes Film Festival. Greta Gerwig had been named as president of the festival's jury and in her honour, Zaho, who speaks little English, sang David Bowie's "Modern Love". Perhaps the most astonishing thing to me about that performance was how she made performing at one of France's most important events all look so easy... at twenty-three years old.

When the Summer Olympics kicked off in Paris earlier this year, I was surprised (and frankly, a little put off) to find that Canadian Céline Dion—and not a native-born French singer—had been selected to perform at the opening ceremonies. But I was later delighted to find that Zaho would open the closing ceremonies with a performance of "Sous le ciel de Paris" (Under The Paris Sky), made famous by possibly the most renowned French singer, Edith Piaf.

Recently, Zaho released a revised version of her record to include eight new songs, one of which was co-written and performed with none other than Tom O'Dell. (It's a little cheesy, but also moving in its own way.) At first, I thought the additional tracks would alter the feel of the record, but no. I was concerned, too, that she'd change the sequencing, but was pleased to find she'd merely tacked them on at the end.

I mentioned earlier that she seems so completely at ease in front of the camera, whether on French TV or—as with the Olympics—in front of the entire world, but social media was coming of age at the same time she was—she was 10 when the iPhone was born (Twitter, too, I think)—so having a cameraphone in her face probably has been second nature with her for most of her life. One of my favourite video moments occurs during a performance of "Aspiration" on C à vous, a French television show hosted by Anne-Elisabeth Lemoine (who I can tell LOVES Zaho). The moment comes at about 2:05 in the video when she approaches co-host Patrick Cohen and makes a face at him.

I realize that this is quite the long post in praise of a musician that most—if not all—of my handful of readers will shrug their shoulders about, but the last ten years in this country have been nothing short of hell. I'm expecting that the next twenty—if I even live that long—will be considerably worse. So I'm glad to be able to rave about one thing that brings joy into my life.

I plan to post photos and/or videos from the concert next month.

Fanboy, Part II: Seeing Zaho

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Change Is Good

or How did I get here?

Today, for the first time since my divorce in 1996, I wished my ex-wife a happy birthday. By text, but still.

It's weird, I guess that that has been the case, but divorce is a pretty shitty experience to go through, regardless of the fifty percent that I contributed to the shittiness of the relationship, which I didn't recognize as shitty at the time because I didn't really give it that much thought.

Maybe shitty isn't really the word for it—for her, yeah, since she's the one who filed—at least I didn't see it that way. I mean I see now what a shitty husband I was—in ways that didn't involve cheating, physical or verbal abuse, getting drunk every night, neglecting the kids... you know the typical metrics by which a shitty marriage is determined as such. No, it was my lack of emotional presence; it was my all-consuming desire to not fail at the job I was failing at that kept me away from home more hours than I care to admit. I went in early, came home late, and often went in late at night for a couple more hours. I was a supervisor and I sucked at supervising, so I did a shitload of my staff's work because for the most part, they didn't care one way or the other if it got done. Our clients' work (often research scientists) required timely delivery. Let me add here, though, that it wasn't all of the people who worked for me.

To be fair, I never instilled in my staff the importance of meeting deadlines. But in my own defense, at what point was that my responsibility? How do thirty-year-old people not get that when something is scheduled to be done by a certain time, you plan your day around that? It was something I could never wrap my head around because every job I'd had in photography/graphics/advertising had been very team-oriented. Everyone understood what had to be done and did it. Anyway, that was where my head was at for the last almost-eleven years of my marriage.

You'd think, of course, that my work would be a subject for discussion between us, but no, my mind set was "why should I burden her with this after her long day with the kids?" It was cyclical in that way, I suppose, since the more I clung onto that rationale for not talking about my problems, the more it became a problem that I wasn't talking about it.

I'm typically not the type to blame his parents for the way I acted within my marriage, but neither can I ignore the fact that I never heard my parents discuss stuff, whether marriage-related or really anything. There probably is a certain amount of modeling from our parents that comes into play. I failed to rise above it, though. Not long after my divorce, after I'd moved into my apartment, I was on the phone with my mom. My older brother had left his wife after twenty-five years of marriage, and my younger brother had been kicked out of his house by his wife because she'd found out he'd been screwing around with someone. In possibly the only time Mom had displayed vulnerability in the years I'd known her, she said something to the effect of, "I should have shown more love to you kids." It was a bit of a shocker really, because as best as I can recall she had never once said, "I love you" to any of us. (Years later, she did.) Mom didn't kiss us before bedtime... I don't recall getting hugs from her. Anyway, my response to her was something like "Mom, you did the best you could. We're (referring to me and my brothers) all adults and we have to live with the decisions we've made in our lives."

It probably didn't help alleviate her Catholic-fed guilt much, but it most certainly was the truth.

It's kind of weird how the thought of wishing my ex-wife happy birthday brought all this out, but it just goes to show how so much of what we do and say and don't do and don't say are related.

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Old Is New

I'm not including a photo with this post, although I should have looked for something just to dress it up a bit, but all of a sudden, after yesterday's post, I have this urge to write stuff here on this old blog (maybe I should change the name again to This Old Blog?) while letting go of my Medium and Substack pages. No one reads anything I write anyway, so what's the difference where I write?

Just now, I went to my Soundcloud page and deleted that account. I hope I have copies of the songs on a drive somewhere. I've just been in this frame of mind lately to start reducing my internet presence. I've already begun to unsubscribe to many of the marketing emails I get—not that I actually ever wanted to receive them in the first place—since I tend to delete them without looking at them anyway. I can't believe how fucking many I get! On many, I've gone to the website of origin and deleted my account.It suckes that they still have my email to be shared and or stolen by others, but I do feel it helps. A little.

I've got a couple of pages at Facebook... one is my photography page, and another is dedicated to the essays and "Thoughts at Large" of Sydney J. Harris, possibly the person who is most responsible for my interest in writing in the first place. I've let that page go a long time without updates, but maybe if I can get myself into some kind of habit, I can maintain it because I really think more people should know about him and the way he thinks, er... thought. Thanks to Google Lens, it's easier to transcribe his writing, which is something that has been a time suck for me, so perhaps I can systematically attack his essays and not—as I have done in the past—select something that is appropriate to the events of the day, week, or month.

I think I feel a plan coming along.

Mark Zuckerberg still sucks, though.

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Stagnancy, Change, Renewal

Union Station, Portland ©2024 Patrick T. Power.

This might be only a temporary thing, but I'm returning to my original blog to write this. Memories from over twenty years ago surfaced and it led me back here. I was surprised to find though, that my earliest post was from 2000, and that it was the only post from that year. From the tone of it, one might think that there had been previous posts, but apparently not. Anyway, in addition to the three blogs related to my parents' history I maintain, I've been posting personal stuff at Medium and Substack. I guess I can't help hopping on the next-best-thing bandwagon.

The photograph I've included here was taken on the 22nd of March 2023. I was taking my son back to Michigan via Amtrak and due to having missed our connecting train in Portland the previous evening by about twenty minutes, Amtrak put us up for the night. Our train for Chicago didn't leave until late afternoon of the 22nd, so I took a stroll in the morning to take some photographs. Union Station is one of the more beautiful train stations I've seen in the country, so I spent a fair amount of time photographing it inside and out.

I have been posting photographs at Instagram for quite some time now. I was enthralled with it at first, before Facebook purchased it. I rather liked the Hipstamatic-created images that many people were posting, and I, not having an iPhone (for which Hipstamatic was created), was stuck with lesser Hipstamatic-ish applications. Still, I had fun with it, and I enjoyed what others were posting. The Facebook/Meta takeover ruined it, of course. I don't know how much Facebook/Meta actually had to do with what Instagram became— namely THE place that other photographers posted their professional portfolios (versus or in addition to, I suppose, their own websites), where celebrities shared their publicity imagery, and where regular people tried to gain massive popularity—but the vibe most definitely changed for me. It seemed as if Instagram had merely become the place to be discovered.

Of course, that's not me. It's not my mindset. I just wanted to post photographs of the things throughout the course of my days, usually taken during my daily walks around the city. For me, it was about sharing. For the last five years, I think, I've taken and posted at least one photograph a day on Instagram, with perhaps a day or two that I somehow missed in that span. I used to tag my photos thinking, OK, yeah, maybe it might lead to getting more eyeballs and therefore more work opportunities if those same eyeballs decided to check out my website, but nah... it mostly led to spammers posting their profile links. I have tagged my projects, such as my Prisma-a-day project in 2020, mostly as a way of finding things for later reference, but I've even cut that out this year.

During my time on Instagram, I've allowed my Flickr photostream (do people still refer to them as photostreams?) to stagnate, despite that I pay for my Pro Flickr account. Last year, I tried to maintain the photo-a-day thing at both Instagram and Flickr, but couldn't keep up. As I mentioned, the above photograph was taken on 22 March, so that means that I made it eighty-one days into the year—not even three full months!

At some point in the last few months, though, as I've scrolled through Instagram, I've decided that I no longer want to post or spend much time there. I've not decided yet if I won't ever post there again, but I'm of a mind as I type this that I won't. Just now, though, scrolling through my feed, I'm pleased with the photographs and the way that they look as a whole. I think that they come together pretty nicely. I like that I stuck with the square format from day one (which was the only way to post in the early days); I like that I did a whole year of black-and-white photographs; I like that I did a whole year—time-consuming though it was—of creating Prisma-created images. Now, though, I want to have as little to do with that asshole Zuckerberg as possible. Yes, I'll maintain my Facebook account, mainly for the groups that I maintain there, but also for the connection it provides with a sizeable number of friends.

Despite that it's not and never will be what it once it once was, I'm heading back to Flickr to share my photographs. I might try to catch up my 2023 and 2024 one-a-day projects between now and the end of this year, but because of my change of phones a couple of times and losing track of where I've archived everything (thanks to a couple of major moves of files in the last couple of years), it could take forever.

I'm not sure what I'll do with regard to my blogging. It seems counterproductive to have three platforms for my personal writing. Maybe I'll take all of the essays from the other sites and re-post them here. I'd already re-posted a number of Facebook Notes (remember those?) at Medium... perhaps it won't be so difficult to re-post them yet another time.

My interest in writing has changed immensely since I christened this blog. So much of my time and energy was taken up wasted with writing about the presidency of George W. Bush. In fact, not too long ago, I spent a day or two deleting many of my political posts. I hope to make time for more of that. I've similarly spent wasted a lot of time screaming into the void on Twitter for the last ten years or more, ruining what was originally a wonderful experience. I deactivated that account recently and have moved to Bluesky, which has a similar vibe to early Twitter, but I don't want to repeat the Twitter experience there, especially having come to the realization that what I have to say isn't really all that important to anyone but myself. So I might end up backing away from that place as a matter of maintaining my mental health.

I've also changed the title of this blog since Voice Of Power was somewhat of a reference to the power of thought and communication in the political blogosphere (a term I've not heard in a while, come to think of it) while coincincidentally being a play on my name. It remains a play on my name but without the pretention.

So, as the saying goes, onward and upward. Or maybe in my case, just onward.

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